wabammed.

well ladies & gentlemen, God throws me for another loop yet again.

i had an amazing day. i went to class, had lunch with lexxie, cleaned my apt then sat by the pool and tanned for 2 hours with lexxie. it was awesome.

however, as soon as i pulled into the sonic parking lot, i get a call from my dad saying my uncle bert had had a heart attack. needless to day i was on edge for about half of my shift. no worries, they put a stent in & he's going to be just fine. praise the Lord for that one.

but then God "wabammed" me. not like i can really discuss this on here (sorry yall) because i haven't been able to say anything about it so far on here. however, i can say that all i can to is leave it to God. oh my goodness i would be nothing without Him. i honestly probably would have gone crazy without Him. i don't understand how people who don't have God do it. how do they make it through the hard times? i know that God has a plan for me & all i can do in this certain situation is just give it to him. He has given me so much peace over it & i am honestly pretty optimistic, no matter what happens. whatever ends up happening, i know that i will be okay. sure, i will probably be really tore up & sad for a while, and i've already lost several tears over this whole matter, but i know that if i can make it through what i made it through in october--i'll be okay.

Romans 8:28: "and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him who have been called according to His purpose."

Jeremiah 29:11: "'for i know the plans i have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. then you will call upon me and i will listen to you. you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. i will be found by you,' declares the Lord, 'and will bring you back from captivity.'"

two is better than one.

words cannot describe how happy i am! & if only i could write on here what i am feeling... but not yet (= i will be able to soon though!

ok enough gushing. this weekend was pretty awesome! the twilight party rock! bsarge had to leave early, but we still had a lot of fun!

zach and brandy hit it off pretty well to say the least! what awesome match makers me & mr andy are (=

saturday i worked from 8-4 & made bank! it was very nice! i skated my butt off though!

then saturday night i went to my brothers house in hendersonville & had dinner with him, suz & the kiddos. it was a lot of fun ;)

sunday was the easter egg hunt with my family @ aunt jane's house in franklin! it was good seeing my family! the last time we got together i was in gulf shores!

sunday night i worked 5-11... it was a normal boring sunday night haha.

today has been awesome! i went to my health class then had lunch at golden eagle with mo & cole! it was om nomtastical! then i went back to the apt, painted my nails (dropped the nail polish on the floor..oops!), cleaned my room & started some laundry! a productive day for sure (=

the last song comes out on wednesday! me & lauren have to figure out when to see it! we've been waiting for this movie for months! the book was amazing! tomorrow i get my camino/sex & the city bff date with lauren! i am so so so excited! i miss her like crazy! it's weird not seeing her almost every day! i have been pleasantly distracted though so that definitely helps (=

"i remember what you wore on the first day
you came into my life, and i thought
hey, you know, this could be something.
cause everything you do and words you say,
you know that it all takes my breath away,
and now i'm left with nothing.

so maybe it's true
that i can't live without you,
and maybe two is better than one.
but there's so much time
to figure out the rest of my life,
and you've already got me coming undone
and i'm thinking two is better than one."

twilight party!

last night was awesome! i worked till 7 then took a nap... so eventful, right?

then i went to katie's & watched the blindside! it was such a good movie!!

today i decided that i needed to invest in a new alarm clock....

i woke up at 10:48... my class started at 10:20. awesome. second time this week. oh well (=

i went to busters with some of the crew: katie, sarah, sullbutt, and joe! it was a lot of fun and i'm stuffed!

then bsarge came over and i packed up and we are headed to get pedis with brandy! i'm so excited!

THEN we are headed to brandy's house to meet up with andy & zach! we're gonna have a twilight party! manhood points are falling away as we speak... not like a & z didn't lose enough in gulf shores... i feel some hoedown throwdown in our future tonight as well ;)

that's about it... not too much left to say (=

still smilin =D

"into your heart i'll beat again sweet like candy to my soul sweet you rock and sweet you roll lost for you i'm so lost for you"

risk it all, cause i'll catch you when you fall.

another rainy day here in the boro. what's new?

ok, ok i can't complain cause yesterday was freakin AMAZING! i even got a farmer's burn on my right arm. i need to even that out but that won't happen today!

yesterday was such a good day! i woke up three minutes before my class started because my alarm didn't go off. i think i should invest in a new alarm... but it's okay (=

i went to have lunch with lexxie (where i got my one armed farmer's burn) and we had a blast! i missed her so much! but not too much longer and i'll be living with her!
then i went to the smyrna starbucks to meet ashley! i worked with her at the tanning bed & she's a k teacher. i had an "interview" with her for the teacher ed program at mtsu. that was my last interview so i can now turn in my application and will hopefully be accepted in the fall!

after starbucks, i went home and tried to study but ended up skyping instead (= then when i attempted to study again, i failed. i felt productive, but will never be productive enough to study poetry. so i made out my schedule for next semester! only three semesters left till student teaching! i cannot wait!

then brandy & katie came over & we went hot tubbing with the boys! sarah came too & it was so much fun! except for andy throwing me in the pool... twice. it was FREEZING! but it was a really fun night with the bc, minus a couple.

so today i woke up to rain. but i'm proud of myself for getting a lack of sleep and waking up early enough to shower, eat breakfast, AND get starbucks. i went to my math class and the lesson wasn't bad at all! caught up with court court & then took the poetry test that i didn't study for! i think i did pretty well though! now i'm wasting away time in the computer lab until my history class! hopefully that class will go by quickly today...

anyways, i have to go to the wonderful world of sonic tonight.. hoo-friggin-ray. but i need the money so HOORAY! we'll make it fun tonight! i get off at 8 so i'll prob bring back some treats for my bc.

well. i guess that's about it.

i'm always smiling lately, no matter what has been thrown at me. and i like it (=

p.s. i miss gulf shores.

"circle me and the needle moves gracefully, back and forth, if my heart was a compass you'd be north, risk it all cause i'll catch you when you fall, wherever you go. if my heart was a house you'd be home"

matthew 7:1-5

today has been such a good day!

the run down:

class

lunch at bluecoast burrito with my best friend (=

back to la's house to watch a few youtube videos & laugh our butts off

ordered tickets to OWL CITY on april 19!!!!!!!

back to my apt to study study study.

ok my highlight of my day so far has been my best friend time (=

i am very excited about tonight though! i'm going to dinner with mr. andy & mr. zach! it'll be SO much fun but we are very sad that lauren can't make it... but cookie monster.. i mean who cannot think of a cookie monster and not smile!?

my week is going by pretty well! i had an awesome weekend too! i went to emilee & kevin's wedding on friday & it was phenomenal! i also got to see some old friends so it was a lot of fun!

then saturday i worked & made BANK from 8-5. i talked to my ex's mom for a bit too, which was a little strange, but it was really nice catching up with her. then i went out with my friends that night & had an absolute blast!

sunday was a pretty relaxed & chill day! i had to work at night, but i made better money than i thought & had three friends come visit, which always makes the shift so much better!

i really can't think about too much more that i can say, i guess i'll just leave with this:

my life is amazing.

i am so so so happy where i am.

God has definitely blessed me with an awesome life.

i can't wait to be a teacher.

and kansas got knocked out, so i've already beat my dad in the bet...well as long as kentucky continues to do well (shout out to sowards: i knew you'd love me for my basketball bracket, cause i put ky as the champs & i'd be disappointed if you hadn't done the same!)

i fully believe in this verse below & i feel that it could definitely be taken to heart by many, many people nowadays...

Matthew 7:1-5

"do not judge, or you too will be judged. for in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye, and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? how can you say to your brother, 'let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? you hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."

reflecting.

"don't put all of your faith & trust into one basket... unless it's labeled Jesus."

i definitely made that quote up today. yay me (=

so lauren & i have had a very interesting past couple of days. we've had a blast, don't get me wrong--we always have a blast together. however, i have really had a lot of situations to reflect on.

i'm definitely not going to go into detail on here, so if you would like to know the specific situation then you're just out of luck!

i guess i'll start off by saying the kind of person i wish to be. i really try hard in life to live the way God wants me to. my biggest example in my life definitely was my Granny, and to follow in her footsteps, my model is Proverbs 31:10-31 (a woman of virtue). this is the type of woman i want to be. i have even considered getting it as a tattoo with a yellow rose. my Granny would roll in her grave if she knew i wanted to get a tat to remember her by!

with that being said, i try really hard to be a person that is honest, loyal, and trustworthy. i absolutely despise gossip, but i, like everyone else, do get caught up in it & to say that i don't would just be a lie. however, i would LOVE to be known as the person who doesn't say a bad word about anyone. that's something that i think i've tried to make my goal in life as i get older. i also want to be the type of person who stops gossip. sitting in and listening in on gossip is just as bad as doing the gossiping yourself. someone who doesn't stand up for a friend being bashed, might as well be bashing their friend themselves. people can be extremely hurtful and cruel. that's life. everyone is at fault here. everyone gossips and makes mistakes and says hurtful things. don't lie, you know you have. but i think the difference is the remorse that people show afterwards. if people own up to things they have said and truly feel sorry for hurting someone, that's a character thing. but for those people who deny & just wanna cover their own butts--there's a character check right there.

good friends are extremely hard to find and i'm learning that the older that i get. my mom always told me that if you have 5 good friends, then you are set. i truly believe that.

don't get me wrong--i'm so extremely happy where i am right now in life. i am so exceedingly and deliriously happy that i don't know what to do with myself. i have the greatest friends anyone can ask for and a couple of extremely special people. and not to mention an amazing family and Savior. i love everything about my life & even though there are speed bumps of drama, i know that i have it made. my life is on track... i'm just waiting to see what God throws my way next.

"if you were falling, then i would catch you
you need a light, i'd find a match
cause i love the way you say good morning,
and you take me the way i am

if you are chilly, here take my sweater
your head is aching; i'll make it better
cause i love the way you call me baby
and you take me the way i am."

remember me.

yesterday was a pretty awesome day!

i missed my first class cause i had left my teacher program application packet at home. so when i was on the way to school, already late cause i had over slept, i was forced to turn back around and go home to get it. i had an interview with casie after my class ended. i didn't wanna walk into class with only like 15 minutes left so i just skipped (= i ended up cleaning up the living room & kitchen which was definitely needed! then i went to the interview & it was so fun! me & casie just chatted for a while about everything! then i picked up sayruh and we went to get some awesome panera! i swear i could eat panera every freakin day! i love it! then i went to walmart where i bought more than i needed, but don't i always? i got much needed groceries & cleaning stuff... and two pairs of shoes and 2 dvds (= and then i forgot to get what i went to walmart intentionally for HAHA! what a holly thing to do! then i went home, cleaned the fridge out & put every thing up...and got on fbook for some serious procrastination time! once i realized i had procrastinated for too long, i wrote my paper--WW2 posters & how they influenced society... or something like that. then i went to see remember me with my bff, lauren. it was AMAZING! such a great movie with a huge twist! then we went to arbys & then went home!

on another note: lauren said it perfectly in her blog. i am extremely fed up and annoyed at situations; however, this is definitely not the place to vent and say things that i might regret later. i'll chose to stay optimistic & positive. i'll just talk to God about it (= works out everytime!

anyways.. i can't wait for this weekend! it's gonna be crazy! i have so much homework over the next week (three papers, two tests, and a quiz), but i'm floating on air so i dont even stress about it! wedding tomorrow, followed by quadsquad time. then silverados & sunday shootin! woohoo!

"i melt everytime you look at me that way, it never fails anytime any place."

kapomsh.

i have really been slackin on this blog lately! and now at about 1 am i am finally getting in some late night thoughts. i guess i should start out with right before spring break:

a couple of days before spring break, i went to dinner and spring break shopping with lauren, andy, & zach. it was a BLAST! we went to o'charley's (OM NOM FREAKIN NOM!) then went to target, walmart, then to steak-n-shake for some shakes! then we played the left right game in the truck & the mail box game! after that, we took lalala home & me z & a watched a movie at my apt. we wanted to watch a funny movie & andy picked out the break up. let me just inform everyone who hasn't seen the break up: it is not a very funny movie. it has its funny scenes, but it is overall a sad movie! great choice, andy!

the day before spring break, me and the quadsquad met up again to get some mexican noms & then me andy & lala went to walmart & then to hendersonville to get beach chairs from my brother & sister-in-law. it was a lot of fun! i forgot what the mexican place was called, but it definitely passed me & lauren's strick standards.

then came spring break. words cannot even describe how amazing of a trip the gulf shores trip was! it is hands down the best trip i have ever been on... in this continent. (=

the first day of GS was super sunny & we all went to the beach. me & lauren got awfully random burns! monday, we let our burns relax & went shopping instead & spaghetti night at the house. tuesday was pretty cloudy & windy, but we still hit up the beach in our hoodies & shorts. we walked down to peir & took a bunch of awesome pictures. then we had taco night! wednesday was our last day & it was scattered sunny & cloudy. we still layed out though since it was the last day & that night went to lamberts where they throw the rolls! it was a great ending to the night. thursday we went to lulu's for lunch & it was awesome! then we headed home =( it was very sad leaving! everyone got along so well & there was no drama! it was such a relaxing and carefree trip!

i am so pumped to get through school though! i am ready to finish this semester out & start my summer! it'll be such a crazy fun summer! in may, my bff lauren & i are going on a road trip to texas to see my brother and his family! i am so excited! i know she will love them & they'll love her! in june, we were supposed to go to jersey with sparta, but that fell through (sad day!), but we decided that we are going to make up for it somehow ;). in july i'll be at camp & i cannot even express how stoked i am for camp! it's def the best week of the year for me! i am sad though because all of my cousins/brothers & their families on my mom's side are taking a cousin trip....the exact same week as camp. i did decide to go to camp though because who knows when my last year will be. i love camp & i have never missed a year. and i'm not 21 yet, so i think i would enjoy a beach vaca with the fam a lot more when i'm older and i guess can relate more? i can def relate to my cousins & brothers just fine, but with all of them having the common experience of kids (and the kids being there), and just being a lot older, i feel like i'll have a better experience and will be more needed at camp. maybe another summer though!

so now that i'm back in school, i have the homework piling up. awesome. within this next week, i have two tests & three papers to write. oh how excited i am! and that's only between three classes. woooooooo.

today was an amazing day too! i can't believe i almost forgot about today! i had classes then went to lunch with sparta & latte... camino.. surprise surprise! then me & lauren watched sex and the city till my night class. my technology in the classroom class tonight was a lot of fun! the teacher bought us pizza and we had two other middle school teachers hanging out with us. we ended up going to his school to see some fun interactive white boards and stuff that they use there. then i had a freakin incredible night.... taco bell, twister, grease, & music. nothin beats a night with friends!

well i'm sorry this is so vague! i'll try to post more blogs more frequently so i can be more detailed... i'm so tired that i can't even function or think about what all i have left to say... and what i would love to talk about, i can't yet talk about ;)

"well you can cut a rug, watchin you is the only drug i need,

so gangsta i'm so thug, you're the only one i'm dreaming of you see,

i can be myself now finally, in fact there's nothing i can be,

i want the world to see you'll be with me." <3